I need to give all I've got.
I need to stay mentally strong.
I need to keep having faith.
I need to give all I've got.
I need to stay mentally strong.
I need to keep having faith.
I need to give all I've got.
I need to stay mentally strong.
I need to keep having faith.
I need to give all I've got.
I need to stay mentally strong.
I need to keep having faith.
I need to give all I've got.
I need to stay mentally strong.
I need to keep having faith.
I need to give all I've got.
I need to stay mentally strong.
I need to keep having faith.
I need to give all I've got.
I need to stay mentally strong.
I need to keep having faith.
I need to give all I've got.
I need to stay mentally strong.
I need to keep having faith.
I need to give all I've got.
I need to stay mentally strong.
I need to keep having faith.
I need to give all I've got.
I need to stay mentally strong.
I need to keep having faith.

because there ain't no sun if you can't look beyond clouds.

Sorry for the lack of updates for a rather long time.

I guess the last few days have been pretty normal. CNY every year means getting to see relatives and friends which I have not seen for ages, and catching up with them, even if it's in small ways. This year was pretty much the same, only that I saw considerably fewer people as compared to previous years. It was still pretty fun though, with stuff such as mahjong!

JIP is drawing to a close, and it's quite scary to see how fast everything just passes. Tomorrow will officially be the last day of JIP, after which would come orientation and then lessons proper. In a way, I'm looking forward to orientation, as much as I don't feel like moving on into lesson mode thereafter.

Everything flows in the bigger picture though, and it's just rather inevitable.

for perspectives are what make our world.

for people don't see the same way.

for we pretend.

why?

and so, I've officially turned 17.

As I must agree with joou, 17 isn't much different than 16. Other than the heartwarming fact that I received birthday wishes at the stroke of midnight, there was really little difference. Still, I'm quite glad to say that I'm 17 now, and another year older.

I'm really really thankful to everybody who wished me happy birthday/happy early birthday/happy belated birthday! (: Now, here goes my attempt to list everybody who wished in person/on Facebook/through sms/through cards, as I also did last year.

A HUGE THANK YOU GOES OUT TO:
cassandra, junyong, hansheng, kristian, jamesgoh, celestine, aaron, jianxiong, charlene, geraldsng, chrisanda, nelson, jarrell, francine, ryan, yenlin, claire, dingjie, jocelyne, justin, shoujian, nigelfong, jed, daniellim, jeremysia, nelson, jiajin, marcusng, jiakun, darius, leon, elden, gregory, elias, kaushik, marcuslee, abhi, zaki, nicchee, daron, amanda, renyan, ernest, samching, jeanhui, kernchoong, liangzi, gracia, matthew, chuanhong, fiona, danielyeo, jiehao, weirong, junlin, bengoh, max, evan, geoff, benwong, rohan, zeming, alastair, aloysius, irvin, joseph, joannestephen, titus, nitya, vincent, nicng, danieltan, jerman, joou, andre, joy-anne&aaron, hongfei, jerrel, kuanyue, peter, jesslyn, jodi, claudia, kimfong, jerroldquek, cherylchen, chngyan, wencen, joy, kirk, peggie, sharonchan, guowei, yuting, kangjie, zongyi, siewying, aarontiong, zhuoyang, mom, dad, aunty irene, 4K people and church people (omg too many I can't remember!) :D I'm sorry if I missed out anybody, please tell me!

nope, this isn't in order. but if you wished me at the stroke of midnight, thank youuuuu again (:

thanks for all the presents :D

thanks for all the cards, especially those long and heartfelt ones :D

thanks if you wished my more than one time :D

thanks if you were the person to wish me the most times :D

thanks if you were the first/last person to wish me :D

thanks for the birthday songs :D

thanks mom and dad for the cake :D

thanks for the cat and cake :D (pictures as promised!)


The cat is cute omg (:

finally, thanks for the promises :D

I think as I start to walk through this next year of my life, the lyrics of this amazing song really are starting to speak to me. It isn't in the same magnitude as the song speaks of (especially since Jeremy Camp wrote this song after his wife died of cancer), but it still maintains the weight of the same message which is speaking to me. The year of sweet 16 has been a really bittersweet one, as I have constantly mentioned in some of the previous posts. I want to make 17 one when I can truly say 'I Still Believe'.

I Still Believe - Jeremy Camp
Scattered words and empty thoughts
Seem to pour from my heart
I've never felt so torn before
Seems i don't know where to start
But it's now i feel your grace fall like rain
From every fingertip washing away my pain

I still believe in your faithfulness
I still believe in your truth
I still believe in your holy word
Even when I don't see I still believe

Though the questions still fog up my mind
With promises i still seem to bear
Even when answers slowly unwind
It's my heart I see you prepare
But it's now that I feel your grace fall like rain
From every fingertip washing away my pain

The only place I can go is into your arms
Where I throw to you my feeble prayers in brokeness
I can see that this is your will for me
Help me to know you are near

The flames danced atop the candles, sending hot wax spiraling down onto the brownish surface below. It had been a year since the last time I had the chance to do this, the difference this year being the addition of an extra candle. I closed my eyes, made that wish which I would hold close to my heart, and extinguished the dancing flames in a single breath. With this, I sealed my promise, once again.

Tag Replies
[matthew] haha personal opinion xD
[nellie] ehhh, OCD is sometimes a good thing! helps you stay organised heh!
[chris] YEAH! but then again, nobody would ever be, sadly D:
[kiimmy] haha it's okay yeah! hope you like it (:
[claudia] omgg haha yeah, that's exactly what my friend said!
[yenlin] yeahh >< but the book is still okay I think! sweet scenes yay (:
[francine] omgg, I haven't replied tags for THAT long? o.o a very delayed happy new year!
[kylim] you too! HAHA you can still afford to be higher, in all senses xD
[chris] haha that was very random xD but I think we're gonna get used to it soon!
[theotterestotter] HAHA it's a nice song omg (: and otter feeding? o.O
[claire.] I AGREE WITH YOU (: nice song!
[theotterestotter] heh, what should I say xD
[graciastef] hello! haha thanks, i'll link you!
[shanzhi] of course they're not, if not you'll have laughed and not got freaked out xD
[claire.] who said it was referring to the same thing? xD anw, saw you in school HAHA!
[yuting] thanks yuting (: & yeah, i'll relink you! keep your blog alive this time.

I would soar ten thousand miles across the azure sky,
to catch one glimpse at the beauty of your face.

I was just thinking of lengths, when this thought came to me. Everybody defines their own lengths, those which they are willing to meet in order to reach their goal. What lengths will you go to find the one you love? What lengths would you meet to keep a friendship? What lengths, why and how?

It is only natural that we adjust this aforementioned in relation to our expectations, hopes and dreams. We find our own correlation in the ever changing tangle of expectations, both our own or otherwise.

Then, I ask myself, what lengths am I willing to traverse? How long am I willing to go on?

Forever, never to stop.

I guess I haven't really written a proper post for quite a long time. Everything's been poetic, but you can't blame me! Poetic language is pretty! So anyway, here's a quick update of what's been going on, and what's up for the rest of the week.

The last week of my holidays have been mainly filled with Class Chalet, APCG Cycling Outing, Charles' Birthday Party as well as TSD stuff. Pretty nice way to end the holidays I guess. Now that's it's ending, I don't really want everything to come to a close just like that. I can't say I managed to do everything I wanted to do during this holidays, but it's been fulfilling at the very least.

Just a random thought, sitting on the beach in the wee hours with the night breeze is a rather refreshing experience. It's been a really long time since I've been out that late listening to the waves crash and retreat, the sounds of the night and friends' voice and kites in the tree. (yes shanzhi, kites in the tree xD) Wish I could do that more often, for the feeling it gives.

I have yet to post my new year post yet. Maybe it'll come soon, maybe it'll come not so soon or maybe it'll never come. Whatever it is, cheers to the start of school tomorrow.

Once again, incoherence at it's best. Oh well.

it was always meant to be
something beautiful
a promise, atop
the dazzling rainbow

shining for us above
our dreams
of never letting go ;
forever

and ever after.

I'm still holding on to this fairytale, and I never want to let go.

Never, because it's forever to me.

when you rake up memories you wish to uncover.
when you see links blind to you before.
when you replay like it's happening again, and again.
when you trust, promise, keep believing.

you find hope.
you find joy, laced with regret.
you find comfort and security.

and I, find you.

hello world! I'm still in the midst of formulating my post 2008 post, so that'll have to wait! Meanwhile, check this out!

Kryptonite - 3 Doors Down

I took a walk around the world
To ease my troubled mind
I left my body lying somewhere
In the sands of time
But I watched the world float
To the dark side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah

I watched the world float
To the dark side of the moon
After all I knew it had to be
Something to do with you
I really don't mind what happens now and then
As long as you'll be my friend at the end

If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well, will you be
There a-holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might
Kryptonite

You called me strong, you called me weak,
But still your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times
I never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head,
If not for me then you'd be dead
I picked you up and put you back
On solid ground

If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well,
Will you be there a-holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side
With my superhuman might
Kryptonite

Woah-woah-oh
Woah-woah-oh
Woah-woah-oh
Woah-woah-oh