this is the first single by David Cook. although i don't really like him as much as archuleta, i must say that this song really rocks (:

if you look deep enough into it, it means alot in many different ways.

The Time Of My Life - David Cook

I've been waiting for my dreams
To turn into something
I could believe in
And looking for that
Magic rainbow
On the horizon
I couldn't see it
Until I let go
Gave into love and watched all the bitterness burn
Now I'm coming alive
Body and soul
And feelin' my world start to turn

And I'll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time
To be more than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

Holding onto things that vanished
Into the air
Left me in pieces
But now I'm rising from the ashes
Finding my wings A
nd all that I needed
Was there all along
Within my reach
As close as the beat of my heart

So I'll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

And I'm out on the edge of forever
Ready to run
I'm keeping my feet on the ground
My arms open wide
My face to the sun

I'll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know
This is the time
This is the time of my life.
This is the time of my life.

okay, maybe the title was just a result of randomness. but finally, after a long and tiring 10 weeks, the term is finally over (: i'm rather relieved now, even though we will have to go back tomorrow for Founders' Day, which would mean the entire morning gone.

but yeah, the term's over! and i'm quite happy about it. i think this time, the june holidays will provide me with a long awaited break. even though there are like three million things to do and complete in a short 4 week, i know i'll be able to go out, play soccer, relax and chill and all that stuff. which kinda rocks now xD

currently, my mind is just in a whirl now as i don't really feel like doing anything. i think i'll leave the major term-closing post until tomorrow after founders' day. as for now, all i can do iss sit back and heave a sigh of relief. oh, until tomorrow that is :/

btw, i'm quite sad archuleta didn't win american idol.
btw, i'm quite irritated after drawing 2-2 with 4F today.
btw, i'm quite tired after not having much sleep recently.
btw, i'm quite stressed with all the outstanding work we have.
btw, i'm quite tired with many things which are happenning.
&btw, i'm thinking through it all, please.

and it's all because i do really care ;

i've got alot to say now, but since it's kinda late and i'm tired, i'll save it until tomorrow.

for tonight,
one of those songs which can mean so many things.
for different points in our lives.

Jesus, Take The Wheel - Carrie Underwood

She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It'd been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way too fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was so scared
She threw her hands up in the air

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight

Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel

Oh I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Oh take it take it from me
Oh

i've just discovered a really old blog post draft in which i selected 10 people to write a paragraph on each. without revealing the name. it was a way to release my emotions and perhaps, be a little more true to myself.

well i haven't published it yet. but i just might soon, in the near future. that's provided i feel like it.

after all, with what's been going on recently, who's to say?

and so concludes the 9th week of term 2. a term which was indeed very tiring.

looking back at the last 9 weeks, i don't really know how i managed to survive everything. it just blows me away to see what i went through this term. and the previous one, not to forget. all that massive amount of work to complete. all those events to take charge of. all those emotions to experience. no words can really effectively sum it up, really.

now, all that's left is to look forward to the last week of term 2. the last week before the holidays which i really need. it's gonna be a time when i can really sit down and look back at all the things i've done for the last half a year, and then count whether it was all worth it. i really need these 4 weeks to take my mind off work, off things of school, off everything. i want to just be able to take in a time of freedom, a time to enjoy with friends and a time of reflection and rest.

i want to go out with people i know well, want to know better or have not seen for a long time.
i want to get a chance to take in my sunrise or sunset.
i want to get a chance to talk freely with people, because holidays are the best time to catch up.
i want to have a chance to build relationships.
i want to do amazings things.
i want to be free. yes, i do.

well, there's one more week of school first.
monday would be spent meeting "banzai" to discuss apcg stuff.
tuesday would be spent with drama feste auditions.
wednesday would bring another meeting at the national musuem.
thursday will be the second last day, when everything has to be resolved.
friday will be the last day. the conclusion. and our match with 4F.

and after that, i don't know what's gonna happen for that one month. i don't know if things will fall into place. but i'm just going to enjoy it. i hope.

it has been a tough term, but i'm going to press on to the end. there's no way i'm giving up on moor house. there's no way i'm giving up in RIPB. there's no way i'm giving up on myself. i'm going to fight until the end, even if it kills me. i know i haven't been doing the best job i can for my house, and i've let them down. but still, i'm not throwing in the towel. i'm going to give it all, for one last push, for moor house.

i'll also like to say a big thank you for everyone who's given me their support through these times (: these small words of encouragement really do mean alot to me, especially when i'm down and nobody realises.

let's press on.

in the midst of everything which is going on now:

Shelter - Corrinne May

What's wrong,
what's getting you down
Is it something I might have said?
You're walking around
with your head to the ground
and your eyes are watery red

I know you've been through rough times
Kicked around, thrown to the ground
but you've always been the strong one
So don't tell me that nobody gets you
'cause I'm standing in your corner
Knocking at the door
You don't have to be alone

Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend

We share a bond
You and I we belong
We're like coffee and morning trains
You strip my defenses
I catch your pretenses
The same blood runs through our veins
I swore I'd be your lifeline
Made a vow that I'd surround you with love at every milestone
I'll listen when nobody gets you
I'm still standing in your corner
Waiting by your door
You don't have to be alone

Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend

It was not too long ago
You sought to understand
You helped me mend
Remember when

So promise me you'll
Call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let my be your shelter my friend

let me ;

y'know, there's always this point in your life where you find yourself standing at a crossroads or a fork in the road. there are things on your mind unsettled, decisions we have to make in order to move on and things we have to gain and let go off. we fins ourselves detached from all of reality, in a world of our own, just to think it through. it feels so surreal sometimes, we may find it confusing and it surely does hurt.

standing at crossroads is never easy. we have to make a choice of where to go and what direction to proceed on from there onwards. we can't just stay in the middle of the junction, because as all of circumstance change around us, we'll just be left lost in it all. our surroundings change not only to affect us, but each other. and this in turn forces us into more action, to adapt.

"he stood at the junction, right in the middle of the busy crossroads. the street lights hung overhead. the sound and blarring horns of cars screamed by beside him. the lights flashed in this cold night. the man's face could scarcely be seen in the malevolent shadow of the night, which shielding him from the surrounding which whizzed by.

then, he looked up to the heavens, and everything seemed to slow. the colours blurred and mixed to form flashes of lights mixed with the stone cold night. there were no more horns, no more headlamps, no more screeches. there was, silence."

my heart's so shaded with the shadows of my past and future.
my mind's so filled with thoughts and desperations.
there're so many things i don't dare say, now.
there're so many things that i'll rather do.

my heart's hurting with the things i'm not saying.
my heart's hurting with the things i'm not doing.
feelings change as the cycle moves on.
perceptions change as we move on.

but somethings never change.

p.s. is it better to have loved and to have lost, than to not have loved at all?

sorry that i have not been blogging for such a long time.
i've really been busy and there were so many other things to think about.
but i'm finally back now after a long absence.
finally.

i'm not feeling very poetic now.
neither am i feeling very coherent.
but i feel as though i want to sleep.
and i hear many songs playing through my head.

this is kind of emo, in a weird way.
decripting it is kinda hard as well.
and it's rather deep.

Idaho - Nerina Pallot
In the back of a car on a road in the dark,
In the stillicide, silently falling snow,
I have packed everything that I own in a bag,
And I'm driving, I'm driving to Idaho,
A poem for leaving, a reason to go,
So I'm driving,
I'm driving to Idaho.

Cause I can't be anyone but me, anyone but me,
And I can't keep dreaming that I'm free, dreaming that I'm free,
I don't want to fall asleep and watch my life from fifty feet,
My hands are on the wheel so I'm driving to Idaho,
'Cause I hear it's mighty pretty...

oh well, i shall not be emo now.
i shall be sleepily happy xD
i shall attempt to count stars.

APCG training tomorrow (: yay (: