there are times when we wonder why certain things happen, why things have to turn out in a certain way.

there are times when through actions and reactions, we are able to perceive through facades and touch the reality which may often be hurtful.

there are times when we are so certain that things would turn out the way we planned, but the outcome leaves us disappointed, contemplative.

in our close surroundings, things change so quickly that we are hardly able to keep up, sometimes. the reality is that almost everything's changing. we see people change and fade away, we see dynamics within groups shift and change, wee see a complex world before us. & with this change comes challenges, conflict. with these changes come letting go.

maybe "disarray" would be an apt word to describe the state in which things move so fast, that we ourselves are left confused. maybe that's what this post is as well, confused. but after being the witness of a turn for the worse, a conflict which was never to be and countless masks being pulled on before my very eyes, there comes a point when I guess we are justified to question.

this year has been one filled with thinking, not to deny. but through it all, I can safely say that I've grasped a better picture of everything, a more rounded view on life. I know what exactly occupies which space in my life, and what I know I can hold on to. as the world zooms by, as our life flies by before us, we can't let ourselves fall into a state of disarray.

we have to be strong. we have to embrace what we hold dear in the midst of this beautiful mess.

and even though things move so fast, I still believe that there are things which do last forever ;

anw, I think that I owe quite a few tag replies to those who kindly tagged on my blog! ohmygosh, these replies are too long overdue!

[kieran] haha do you think you're right? xD
[candy] hi hi!
[anonymous] haha yeah i did! it was funny what!
[huong] hey haha you too! thanks!
[han sheng] ehh, I never sleep in the first place okay!
[kangjie] haha lately I've just had this urge to blog more. see, now it's dying already.
[clement] lol, what's that supposed to mean man?
[chris] haha I've gotta sustain it! sudden urges to blog compel me to blog xD
[hcir] haha yessssssss!
[zijie] haha yup sure!
[amanda] i took super long to do this too! haha your answers aren't queer la (:
[fiona] umm, only one? haha sorryyyyyy.
[briant] lol! then are you saying your good side is even better! xD
[joy] secret (: haha you wanna know?
[nigel] lol! you blur what! what can i do about it -shrugs-