I guess this really just sums up everything which we felt during the APCG week. This is on the blogs and msn display pics of many of the APCG facils and participants alike. I'm hoping too, that it's gonna live on in our hearts for a long time to come. For the facils, we committed our hearts to this from the offset. It took more than two months to put everything together, still quite amazing because of the fact that we were total strangers to each other right at the start. Like i said duirng the final group debrief session in PGPR, at the start "I looked across the table and didn't know anybody", and the start was not all that smooth sailing as well. The whole process didn't start off as i envisioned it to be, and there were a fair share of problems to be resolved at first.

Exactly 70 days on, the 50 of us are sitting in the PGPR multi-purpose hall, with APCG having come to a close. We watch a photo montage, we reflect and then it all come to a close. Back on that day, I still harboured a sense of disbelief that it was all over, the weird feeling that we would never have to plan anymore activities for this again, the sadness that we would no longer need to meet and stress over everything we needed to do. It was for me, a great sense of accomplishment, yet a overwhelming feeling of sadness. I realised that i had grown attached to this entire process, the group of 49 other facils and the experience as a whole. From the start, we've all come a really long way to where we ended up. We ended up united, as one. I'm really going to miss everything for what it was worth.

I really hope these bonds don't break so easily. As the passage of time passes us by, it's just natural for us to all fade away. Fade away into our busy schedules, fade away into our own lives of comfort and fade away into our own worlds. Be it participants or facils alike, I don't want any of it to fade away. I'm being brought back to HCI 13th SLC, when we though ECNE would stay strong forever. It worked for a while, but very soon, the contact just wasn't there and we seem so immersed with our own lives now. Last november, during OIP Hue, we built bonds across culture and country which we tried to sustain for as long as possible. Maybe it's true that all the miles can just seperate, because it's really so hard keeping up with everything. Slowly, we started to fade away. After just 5 days of contact with our participants, would we be able to at least sustain a basic relationship? After 70 days with each other, what would we facils do after it all ended? Although forever is a scary word, let's not fade away!

I sincerely want to thank everybody who has made this experience so wonderful and magical for me! I'm thankful I got to know the people I already knew before everything started even better. I'm thankful for the new people whom I've known. I'm thankful for everyone who made me happy. I'm thankful for everyone who cared. I've got many many things to thank people for and to say, but I'm not going to squeeze it into this post. & I'm thankful for my BG co I/Cs and logistics I/Cs! joou and jocelyn! & jocelyne, juan, darius and daniel!

I'm not going to blog a day by day post, because of the simple fact that there is really too much to say for each day! Although we didn't get as much interaction time with the participants as I would have liked, the times we spent were always fruitful and meaningful. 5 full days took a toll on our energy levels, but ultimately, it was fulfilling.

It's more than a week on from the end already. & I still feel as if i want more of apcg, more of those people who make me truly happy. thanks for the memories (:


BANZAI <3