last night, i had a very strange dream.

i woke up half thinking it was true, only to discover that it was all part of my imagination.

it's really weird to see all that i hoped to happen yet hoped not to happen, all that i imagined yet couldn't imagine, all that i wanted yet didn't want, all that made me smile yet all that made me cry and all that finished with a happy ending yet all that fell apart, all present inside this one dream.

the people in this dream, really made me wonder, contemplate.

is this the mirror of my reality? because i might really have cried.



anyway, on to the long list of other stuff which i promise in my previous post xD i really don't think i can finish writing about all the stuff. hopefully i can though.

26th of Feb was PI day! i think i woke up with a lot of excitement even though i was still half-asleep when i left my house. SS test in the morning seemed to pass very quickly, and so did all the last minute prep for PI. everything was going according to plan i guess. and i'm still quite amazed that the EXCO managed to learn the EXCO dance in like 20 minutes (:

the ceremony started a little late, but still managed to whizz past in no time. i'm satisfied with whatever happened during the ceremony. maybe the speeches were a tad too long, but that's really besides the point. soon, the dance started and we were quite hyped up (: started well (with shanzhi a little off sync as usual!) and continued on well.

then it happened.

the music totally stopped half way through the third chorus. silence soon followed. i could sense that tinge of uncertainty in the air before we continued to sing the rest of the song, and perform the by-now-rather-out-of-sync dance. and it ended. all the hours of teaching and rehearsals for this. and all the guests promptly filed out of the hall.

on hindsight, i'm quite disappointed with the way the finale turned out. or maybe the problem just lay with the way it was crafted in the first place. being at RGS SLI just a few days earlier put so such expectation on ourselves because i could see how good their item was. discounting the fact that girls usually dance better than guys (which in fact might not be true all the time), the entire feel the item gave was good. i knew individual move by individual move we could never match up, and so i hoped we could come together as a board to make it work. in a sense, i'm glad each member of the board put in so much effort into trying to learn the dance properly even of you had two (or more) left feet (: i'm really really happy that you all bothered to take owenership of what was your performance for your investiture. but how it turned out, let's say it's just not the best that it could have been. i've got my own reasons, some of which aren't very convienent to be mentioned here. anyway, it's over now, we did what we could. we finished this race.

maybe it's just that i had really high expectations for this PI?

whatever the case, i thank all the prefects who really helped out in so many ways! especially all the sub-comm ICs, who worked so hard to put everything into sync and make everything right. NEPs, i hope you all enjoyed the investiture in which you all were formally investited in. one way or another, in the eyes of different people, i guessed it turned out fine (: