for some reason, i'm still remembering 2007.
it's like i don't want to let go of it, yet.
maybe it's the thoughts and memories which it held.
maybe it's how i've grown inside.

2007 was a year of many firsts.
some were good, some not so good.
nevertheless, everything feel into place
and created emotions. not only EMOtions.

i'm thankful for everything,
which has taken and shaped me.
but going on your own is never easy.
there's always this sense of loss, sometimes.

y'know, theres always this fear that the following year won't be as good.
there's the apprehension going into a new 366 days.
anticipation mixed into it too,
and in the end, you don't know what you end up with.

i rode a motorbike for the first time.
i went to vietnam for the first time.
i think i really experienced class spirit for the first time.
i didn't keep my inner-most feelings to myself only for the first time.

so many things happen,
with just so little time to squeeze them into.
this year is going to be the same i predict.
and i'll never know what's going to happen.

let's keep this year going.
i want it to be great.

in relations to this,
perhaps it was apt for me to spend my first 50 mins of 2008 on a garden gate
just thinking to myself, and the occasional words.
i tried to sort my mind out before this tough year,
but i don't know how well it worked.
but i know there are things i can't lose.

time really flies too.
now we are the secondary 4s conducting the secondary 1 camp,
in which we were participants just three years ago.
now we are seniors in the school,
awaiting promotion and graduation.

now i am turning 16 in less than 2 weeks,
and i can't believe it.

remain.
i want it better, this way.
uncertain.
i want it clearer, pristine.
close.
i want it to stay, just the right.
how?
can it be?