i <3 ikea!
haha went to ikea and queensway with shoujian today to get more stuff for the vietnam trip! sigh, but i really hate the heavy rain. especially when i have to go out ): meant to meet shoujian at 2 aft going home from school but in the end only reached at 3 cuz i was stuck in the rain. ahh, i hate being late la ><
anyways, we managed to get enough stuff and printed the cards! i think things are pretty much settled for the trip already and almost everything is set. 3 and a half days left from now. have to tie up all loose ends before tuesday and so i hope all will be smooth (: vietnam!
you know how this sense of loss and anxiety and all comes to you sometimes when you see something. today, watching the last part of the secondary 4 graduation ceremony, the batch song and the UNITE cheer and all, it was really overwhelming. this feeling just came over me again. in one year's time i'll be in that very position, receiving the cert, shaking hands, taking photos and knowing my time in this institution has come to an end. in one year, everything that i've worked for here will come to an end. my time in RIPB would have terminated. the fate of moorhouse would already have been decided. my grades would show my performance. everything would be in place for this farewell. and i'll be walking down these school halls one final time.
RJC provides a whole new environment. with new friends, old friends, better friends and sadly, broken ties too i should presume. and my time there would be even shorter. less time to make an impact. less time to just be there. i have so many hopes for 2008, what i want to do, gaps i need to fill, relationships i need to heal, people i need to care for. push hard. let's go raffles!
i wanna go out in the next few days!this is really the wrong time to get emo again. really not the time. but i don't know if i really can help it. i wanna just stare out a window into the rain and try to sort myself out. again. i thought i had passed this stage. i thought but it has not really materialized. i'm confused once again. maybe i just think too much. -i wanna blog on my wordpress. i think i can express it better there under a pw protected post.
