♥myriad.

Tuesday, 24 July 2007

; 00:46

sighh. i'm reallyreally tired after a long day at school. had maths CCT today and i think i did badly. much worse than what i could have done. why can't they give us more time to complete the paper? no use ranting about it now anyway.

i realise that I'm really packed this week. after school everyday, i have so much stuff exculding CCA. things like extra lessons, random MOE surveys all start popping up. and i still gotta mug for the chinese CCT on wednesday. i really need to do well! i really need better grades.

at least i can be positive because zhanglaoshi came back today! a proper chinese lesson for the first time in three months. seriously, the contrast was so stark it hit me hard. what have we been doing for the last three months? is it too late to catch up now after all that has past already? well, i'll wait and see. hopefully the results of this aren't so adverse. sigh.

haha. seems like i got so much to say today. but my mind is really whirling with thoughts of sleep and the 60 plus chengyu i just stuffed into my brain. it kills i tell you. i doubt i can explain or type anything in full now. just that issues have plauged me lately. school stuff and all. sigh. the crazy period is here, together with all sorts of elections. elections. hmm.

it glistens
the sparkling blade under rays of bright
retract ; then apply
the full force felt.
cold steel opening up the red sea,
a sea of red
three beats turn to none
emotionless, void
is the feeling of nothingness.
my heart's memories were left
at that day where
the first cut was the deepest.

misty eyes;
hope that bandaged wounds
do heal fast.
the wielded double-edged sword
pressed close with
the place i am.
the place where i am left.
the place where is left, i am.
mortal mind says,
yes.
but the other side
of me, so forewarns
that it could very well turn out
like,
very like this
deja vu.
deja vu.

there was no pre-thought of the above. it just came and i typed. maybe its too confused? maybe i'm confused in myself? i know, but is it right? could it be that the other side of the sword is facing me this time round? time for the happy ending? sigh.

oh well, "angels brought me here".

and they can take me away.